Many believe that the prophesy of the world ending this year according to the Mayan Calendar is being set into motion as we usher in 2012.  I don't know what the future holds, but I do know that I thank God for allowing me to live to see the beginning of a new year.  I so hpe that all of us will vow to make this year better than the last one and keep love in your hearts.  If we do that, then we have done all we could, come what may.

I pray that the year finds you in good health, sharing love and closeness with your families and others, and keeping Michael's dream and his love alive by doing something compassionate for someone else.  

I pray that Michael's family and especially his children are able to welcome in the new year with hope eternal.  It is never going to be easy to wake up to a new day without him, but I pray that at least sometimes they wake with a smile on their faces put there by him the night before.  He is watching over us and he loves us one and all.  

So to 2011, I bid you a fond farewell.  It in retrospect was a very good year.  2012 has its work cut out for him but I know that what ever is on the horizon for us to face that we will with dignity and react in a responsible way.  

Thak you Father for all my blessings.  Thank you for my life.  Thank you for sending Michael Jackson.  Thank you for your mercy.  Thank you for my friends who got me through some of the most tragic times in my life.  Thank you for loving me.

Have a wondeful, blessed new year everybody.   Please be safe.  

 My mother left this earth on this day 34 years ago.  It rocked me to the core.  She was my mentor and my best friend.  I have never stopped missing her and I will never ever stop loving her for allowing me to be me.  My mother had the voice of an angel and was always singing around the house.  I remember the last song that would rang through the house preceeding the day that she passed away.  When I close my eyes, I can see her clearly still standing there, cooking breakfast and singing her heart out.  So one more time, this song is for you mother. I now that on this day you are singing it in perfect harmony in heaven.  For some reason, I know that Raphael and your idol, Jackie Wilson is singing right along with you.  I miss you more. 

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  Today is Christmas, 2011.  It is exactly two years and six months that Michael died for the sin of showing too much love to a world where love and being loved too much is the ultimate sin punishable by the ultimate sacrifice.  As I sit in wonder on this day, the birth of our saviour, Jesus Christ, I am also in awe at the fulfillment of his promises to us.  God came to us for only a little while in the body of Christ.  He was born of a woman, and lived amongst us in the flesh so that we might see the living God through our own eyes, suffering alongside us while working miracles, and emparting unconditional selfless love unto us.  He came to us as a child who grew into a man who walked with us, so that he could show us how much he understood us and that he loved us enough to suffer the same perils did we.  Have you ever just sat and though how totally unselfih that was.  To be loved so much that he would come with one purpose, to die for us on a cross that we be free of all our sins!  I cannot describe what that does to my heart and my soul.  He is the way and the truth and I shall love him always.

I have oftentimes quoted the promise that God made to us that a child shall lead them.  He promised that he would come and I have always believed that that promise was fulfilled in the body of Michael Jackson.  It feels he too had an ultimate purpose on this earth and that his death was the sacrifice that was its fulfillment. Sometimes God uses bad people to do good things.  The death of Michael was by a bad person.  But the change in the hearts of millions and millions of people only came about after the fulfillent had been done.  Michael's death, just like Jesus', turned humanity around.  All around me everywhere is the embodiment of what Michael Jackson's life was about.  The world has changed for the good of all of us.  Deeds of kindness have permiated this planet and in all of it , in every kin deed, we see visbly the workings and teachings of our angel, Michael Jackson.   He too is the truth and I shall love him always.

In Ezekiel 34:25 this profound message stopped me in my tracks: "I wll make a covenant of peace with them and rid the land of wild beasts so that they may live in the desert and sleep in the forests."  

At first read I thought of Michael's Neverland where animals of all types lived peacefully amongst the many people who visited and lived there.  But then upon further pondering the premise became deeper.  Michael Jackson not only brought about a peace with the animals and understood them, but he more profoundly was doing all in his power to increase humility and compassion and love in the world; especially for the children.  He was in fact making a covenant for them to ensure that they might be safe in a world where children are abused and murdered and denied the right to a peaceful co-existence.  The wild beast being the perpetrators of the world who abuse and neglect children and deny them the right to be free to roam.   Michael was working to tame the beast by teaching them the values and importance of the lambs in the world, the children. How profound!

It is lessons like these that keep me constantly faithful to my belief that though Jesus is omnipotent and no one can ever match or even compare to all that he is, I believe that he having lived once upon a time amongst us knows that sometimes as human nature dictates, people need to see the work manifest  by one who has lived and grew up and suffered, yet excelled to become the phoenix, the light amongst us, in order that we can relate to and respond at the level of the heart. This being the same reason that Jesus came in the flesh to abide with and dwell amongst us so many years ago.

He sends us angels because he understands our psyche and wants for us the very best.  In my lifetime, with every beat of my heart, I believe that Michael Jackson was one of them.  

I am not trying to force my beliefs on you, just speaking from my heart.  Michael will always be an angel to me.  God Bless the Lambs of God.

Have a merry Christmas my friends.  Love conquers all.  

This is my Christmas Prayer youtube video.  Perfectly beautiful.  Michael Jackson ♥♫ A Christmas Prayer ♫♥ - YouTube

Cassie

It is amazing to me that we are only 5 days from Christmas.  It feels as though this year has only just begun andit is already ending. 

As we enter into the holiday season, remember to tell those you love just how important they are to you.  Hug them.  Kiss them.  We never know what the future holds.  Today is the only one that is promised.

I am including a song that so reminds me of Michael Jackson, not only at this time but for all times.  It is my favorite Christmas song, sang like no one else could ever sing it.  the voice of an angel.

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Old memoirs from my Angel Diary

The case against Conrad Murray in the unexpected death of Michael Jackson, the greatest humanitarian to have ever lived in my opinion, is done.  We have a person in custody for the death of him.  He has been tried and found guilty of  a lesser crime than appears to have taken place and is now serving the first of 4 years of his imposed sentence.  He will likely spend much less than the 28 months the world has suffered since Michael's death, paying for his crime.  So what now?  is this the real "This Is It"?  Am I now suppose to completely close that chapter and finish the book and place it on my shelf to gather dust?  I cannot.  Why? Because I am certain that there I much more the needs to be dealt with.  That book should stay open until all the fine print has been revealed.

I will never rest. I cannot ignore things that have troubled me since June 25th that have not been addressed.  I know that many people are of the belief that Conrad Murray held the needle in his hand that killed Michael.  Perhaps.  But I have always been one to go beyond the obvious, and in this case which changed the structure of my DNA, I have to take it where my heart tells me to.  No one else need follow me.  I am good going it alone.

I believe that Murray's hand was forced or at the least, guided, and AEG continues to be a thorn in my side.  After acquiring a full, un-redacted copy of that contract, my suspicions have haunted me.  After hearing how those affiliates had come to feel obliged to man-handle and tongue lash Michael into helpless submission, they have haunted me more.  After learning that Michael's family and many of his personnel choices were all but shut out and away from Michael, his growing concern for his safery, his health concerns, and then this unfathomable neglect at the hands of his doctor, the haunt has turned into something more.  Will we ever have the full story?  Will the truth be buried forever with Michael?  Did money and power and a total lack of respect for a man who had made for the industry more than any other artist in history in turn ruthlessly set out to dismantle all that he had required because they felt prvileged to do so simply because of some signed papers?  Did they turn a blind eye to Michael's serious ills in an effort to show him who held the upper hand because of some signed pieces of paper?  Does it matter that tese signatures were all on a seperate page, detached from the body of the contract and faxed over as "official"?  What manner of people would be so shrewd and heartless?  I still want to know and I will continue to search my mind and my heart for the clues until somehow I get my answers.  Something went very wrong in California, and Conrad Murray knows what it was.  I swear if I had enough money, I would sign it all over to Conrad in exchange for the truth which he hasn't uttered since day one.  He knows what went down in that house, and I believe with all the breath in my body that he has information that could turn this whole thing around and bring down some powerful people.  I would even go so far as to state my life on AEG being behind Michael's demise and eventual death with Conrad being used as the scapegoat for the exact same reasons that we have seen during and after the sentencing.  He has no violent criminal record and is upstanding in his community.  He will serve minimal time behind bars.  And he will more than likely be taken care of for the rest of his life should this little trade off work.  It did.  Now I play wait and see. Time will tell.  Murray shows little to no concern because he knows once this little facade is finished, his worries are over.  Someone is footing his bill!  We're not stupid.

I could be very wrong in my fears, and I know many will argue the point; however I have always been one to follow my own heart and it keeps leading me to the same place.  There is so much wrong with the picture that has been painted and thrust out to us to accept as the total truth. So much left out that is needed in order for the picture to make sense.  I pray that it will all come to light during my lifetime because until it does, I am a captive to it.  If I never utter another word about it, it will always be on my heart. 

It never should have come to this.

Michael Jackson, God Bless you.  God bless you. God bless you.

That's as true a statement as I've ever made because after seeing on the web that Conrad Murray is being an idiot again in stating that he is glad he did the documentary that pissed off the judge and that he is not phased by the 4 year sentence I am fuming 

when I first learned that Katherine Jackson had agreed to the request by the prosecution or grandy jury or whom ever makes those decisions to charge Murray with involuntary manslaughter rather than murder I tried with all in me to dissuade that. However, Mrs. Jackson had been brainwashed to believe that it would be easier for a jury to find Conrad guilty of manslaughter than murder for all the WRONG REASONS.  Now she is dissatisfied with the outcome.  I often said that if Michael was my child, I would rather go for what I knew should be the charge rarher than accept a lower charge with the firm belief that once all the facts were revealed any sane jury would see the truth.  If not, then at least I would be able to live with myself having given it all I had.  But go for it because murder is exactly what it was.  There was the risk of him being sentenced on a lower charge if that was what the judge saw fit, but from what Judge Pastor said on 11/29, I doubt it.  I do believe that had they gone for murder, Murray would be sitting in jail serving much more time and not being as pompus as he is now.  Truth is, he got away with MURDER.

When I get home this evening, I am going to respond to those articles as pompously as he has demonstrated he can write them.  I cannot do it now, but when I get on my own computer, I've got some choice words for Mr. Murray.  I am seething with anger.  I really am.