As I sit in my home this evening after another trying day, listening to Michael Jackson's music, I lay back and close my eyes and immediately his image appears. His face is as clear as day. His eyes are kind and he is smiling. It seems that every time I close my eyes, his face is the first thing that comes to me. And in this instance I know that Michael will never be lost to me for as long as I live.
I was very happy for Michael's family that Judge Pastor was able to see through the forest of lies perpetrated by Conrad Murray over those 6 weeks of trial, and that he didn't mince his words when reprimanding him. He was 100% right. And he gave Murray the most he could for the charges presented. I do believe that had Murray been charged with a greater crime, the outcome would have been the same. But we take what we can get and 4 years was for these charges, the best. Thank you Judge Pastor. You did us proud.
I have always said that once the trial was over, so would be my days on the computer forums where I have virtually lived since June 25, 2009. It has taken its toll and so I must do what is best for me. Nothing and no one could have held me captive the way this has. It changed my life. And for it, I know I have become a better person. But now it is time for me to move on.
As I close this chapter in my life I just want to say that Michael Jackson will always be with me. He will always be the catalyst that moves me to change things that I know need changing in my life and around me. He is, as his song implies, another part of me. And so is every wonderful human being I have come to know over these years. We are all a piece of the pattern in this quilt of what we call life and will always be.
I have made many friends and acquaintances whose faces I'll never get to see. Though I have lost many loved ones, I have gained so much compassion for people at a spiritual level which has helped me to understand on a much smaller scale how Michael must have felt when he tried to impart to the world that he loved us more. It is possible to love humanity just because we are all intricately spiritually interwoven on this planet. Even when we do not recognize the faces, we feel the love. We meet and love as one. That's what Michael wanted for us and now it makes perfect sense. Love is universal and it's only face is the heart.
I hope as we go out into the world after this day that we will venture with a stronger, greater purpose, and that the vision is clear. Michael died for that and he shall not have died in vain. When duty calls we all must answer and remember Michael's legacy, to make this a better world for you and for me.
Dear Michael Jackson, thank you for the sacrifices. Thank you for the tools with which to start. Thank you for the vision on which to embark. And thank you, thank you, thank you from the bottom of my heart for always, always, always making me believe it when ever you said I love you more. God Bless and keep your dream alive. Keep dancing Michael. Keep smiling. And I promise to keep believing that I too can dance the dream.
To Paris, Prince, and Blanket. Your father is a hero, a legend, an angel, and he is always with you. Touch your hearts and feel his beating there.
To Katherine and Joseph - God Bless you and thank you for sharing your gift with the world. May you always know that you were loved.
To Jackie, Jermaine, Tito, Randy, LaToya, Janet, Marlon, Rebbie - You are thy brother's keeper. Cherish the memories & be the keepers of the dream.
To Omar Bhatti - You had the best of him. Share your gifts and cherish the love that only you knew. You wear it wll.
Michael Joe Jackson is love, love lives forever. The last tear I will ever shed will be for the loss of his genuine loving presence on this earth. God has him now. And he is not alone. May he forever rest in peace. Sleep Angel. It's finally over and you are free to fly at last.
When I look to the heavens your face I'll see
gently smiling down at me
And when at last I take my rest
I'll know I'll be going to join the best
Save a place for me, Michael; right between you and my beloved Raphael. There's no other place I'd rather be. So angels, save a place for me.