I have had such a hard time trying to be "normal" since you left me. How am I to hear music again, and not be reminded of what the world has lost? I can't. But believe me angel, I am trying. I don't want you to worry that I'm not continuing to grow. I know that would not please you. But it is hard. It is extremely hard. I try at least once a day to remind myself that you were never selfish or boastful. You were never, ever intrusive. You were always willing to step aside and let someone else shine, and you applauded them with fervor when their efforts were well meaning and the task well done. So how can I now, not stop, stand up and applaud you for what you left for me, for all of us, on this earth? How can I not celebrate and be joyful in knowing that your love was everlasting and your light will shine forever? I must remember and cherish you for who you were and honor you in that realm of reality. To do less would be to cheat myself of the magic that still and always will exist. I cannot lose it less I lose my soul. So Michael, today was a good day. It was a day filled with thoughts of you, happy thoughts and memories. I heard a song that reminded me that you are everywhere the heart is. It wasn't your voice, but the words, were words that I knew you would approve and they fell softly on my ears and rested beside you in my heart. If you can hear me, I dedicate this song, with these words to you: Secret, by Seal
You must know me
I'm one of your secrets
Look at me, I'm your heart's keeper
And I belong to you, Yes I belong to you
I belong to you...
and you belong to me
Forever in my heart, Michael, forever in my heart.